I feel like I’ve been in a weird mood lately…….I’ve been loving life, but ready for change. I think I probably always feel this way right before fall! Fall is so refreshing, so rejuvenating. I know most people feel this way about spring, and I might too, after the long days of being in the house throughout winter…….but Fall will always be my favorite. pumpkin patch, costumes, cutie’s birthday, thanksgiving, christmas, lil cutie’s birthday…..so much to be excited about.
Today, during Sunday School, Rob talked about the powers of sin. I guess I have never really talked about sin having power……but it does. Ive heard so many times that you should remove yourself from sin……stay away from things/people that make you sin. One comment was made to surround yourselves with believers and not really “run in the same crowd” as unbelievers. Im kindof confused about this. I guess, mainly, because I work at the coffee shop. Sarah and I are the only Christians that work there…….everytime I go to work I hear waaayyy too many curse words, stories about their parties and drugs, and one girl’s ideas on spirituality/healing. These people are SO lost…..SO far from knowing God. But I love them……..they are good people….they just are Lost. I feel like if I was totally remove myself from being around sin, then that would mean I would need to quit my job. And if that was what I were supposed to do….I would do it….in a second. But, this is where I am confused. If I totally removed myself…..how would they be exposed to Jesus. How would they see something different in me……I mean, Jesus didnt surround himself with believers….he was in the midst of sinners…even dining at their houses. Dont get me wrong, I dont mean that I should party with these people or even hang out with them. I totally believe that my inner group of friends should be strong believers that challenge me to love my God even more……and they do.
I love my church where I leave thinking…..thinking about the lesson/sermon and how it applies to my life. I guess sometimes I get confused……..what is accepting/condoning and what is being judgemental?? ugh……
i also need to quit being so sensitive……..any suggestions?? little things people say will hurt my feelings/ or just bother me and I obsess over it. why?? i really dont care….i mean, really, i don’t. But for some reason, these little thoughts stay in my head. I feel like I am constantly praying, God rid me of these thoughts, let me only look towards You and Your words. But it seems like a broken record. And usually its stuff that would seem really ridiculous to some people…..but for some reason bother me. ugh, any thoughts? or am I just mental?